A Man of My Word???

Lately, i have really not been able to stick on to my commitments. I have said something and done something else due to some reason or the other. In other cases, i have put efforts but have not been able to deliver results that i promised. Unintentionally, i have got into a couple of such situations wherein indirectly i wasn't able to keep my word. I really am not able to decide whether it good or bad.

This lack of commitment in me can be argued to be good on the basis that i'm a free person and don't get stuck with words. I don't give into such pressures of people's expactions and live life tension-free.

On the other hand, this quality makes me untrustworthy. People can't depend on me even if i have given them my word for something. It spoils my public-image as well as lowers my own self-esteem.



What should i do about it??? This is the question that i am asking myself. I surely can't justify this by giving the former explanation. I gotta learn from my mistakes, taking the pinch from them (minus the guilt). This is the only way for me to grow in this respect. I have to own my words to as much extent as possible(without becoming stubborn and rigid). Of course, i have to maintain some flexibility so that i can adjust as per the situation instead of creating a mess just to remain stuck to my words.

P.S. I have literally created a Mess in my hostel just to remain stuck to my words :-)

Bye.