Having Confidence...

Confidence is defined as the ability to make a fool of oneself in front of others and be comfortable about it. I realized that i have got this ability 110% when i gave a seductive dance performance on the song "Zara Zara Touch Me" in front of few of my friends and made a total fool of myself. I definitley can make a total jackass of myself in front of any number of people, without getting affected by the thought "What will they think about me?" That i how i am able to be my natural self and am able to be free from almost all types of stress and tension.

I pondered upon my past life and realized that i was the complete opposite of this a few years ago. I used to devote all my time and planning just to impress others. I am astonished by the kind of change that has come into me just by a little change in my attitude. It is rightly said that "the quality of your life depends entirely on the state of your mind".

I have totally come over the sabse badha rog "Kya Kahenge Log". I don't give a damn to what people think about me and do whatever i want to do. I really cherish this freedom to do what i feel like doing without getting biased by people's opinions. This doesn't mean that i don't listen to genuine advices that i get from my good friends. This just implies that i don't become a football of the momentarily opinions of people who don't matter. I have realized the nature of opinions is to continuously change with every moment and i can't base my life on these mere "thoughts" of people or even my own self.

Yes, even my thoughts and feelings fluctuate a lot. But i have the knowledhe that i can't implement all my thoughts. For example, if i get the feeling of eating home-made Rajma Chawal in the middle of my class, i won't go all the way to Delhi for implementation of my thought. My commitment of sitting in the class for the full duration is bigger than the small thought of my mind of eating Rajma-Chawal.

These words have been fully inscribed in my mind are:
"Thoughts come, Thoughts go... My commitment is ROCK SOLID.
Feelings come, Feelings go... My decision is ROCK SOLID.
Opinions come, Opinions go... I AM ROCK SOLID!"

No person or event can ever shake me, nothing can dare to touch or even come near to who i am. Nothing can touch my being. My self. That which can't be tamed in any way...
I am THAT. I am THAT.
SO-HUM.. SO-HUM....

Jai Guru Dev!

Love,
Jayant Nasa